looking for a new place to live is stressful.
found a few things on craigslist that sound promising.
a house and a duplex.
hopefully something good with come from this.
going to bonnaroo tomorrow. fun times.

Fill up your mind with all it can know
Don't forget that your body will let it all go
Fill up your mind with all it can know
What would we be without wishful thinking

Chambers of chains
With red plastic mouths
The inside of outside
No one has found
How to unring the bell
It's just as well

The turntable sizzles
Casting the spells
The pressure devices
Hell in a nutshell
Is any song worth singing
If it doesn't help

Fill up your mind with all it can know
Don't forget that your body will let it all go
Fill up your mind with all it can know
'Cause what would love be without wishful thinking

Open your arms as far as they will go
We take off your dress
An embarrassing poem
Was written when I was alone
In love with you

I shook down those lines
To shine up the streets
I got up off my hands and knees
To thank my lucky stars that you're not me

What would we be without wishful thinking
What would we be without wishful thinking
What would we be without wishful thinking

we no longer have the internet, or cable, or netflix for that matter.

ive spent the last week studying and reading lots of books.
and playing xbox 360- fallout mostly
and annoying my friends/neighbors/coworkers.

so what little updates i give will probably be few and far between
and from my phone

im using the parental internets right now.
woo hoo.

virginia trip this weekend, probably updates then since i take my computer everywhere.

loose lips might sink ships but loose gooses take trips
to san francisco, double dutch disco,
tech tv hottie, do it for scotty
do it for the living and do it for the dead
do it for the monsters under your bed
do it for the teenagers and do it for your mom
broken hearts hurt but they make us strong and

we won't stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again and just pretend that
nothing ever happened

we won't stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again and just pretend that
nothing ever happened

we're just dancing, we're just hugging,
singing, screaming, kissing, tugging
on the sleeve of how it used to be
how's it gonna be?
i'll drop kick russell stover, move into the starting over house
and know matt rouse and jest are watching me achieve my dreams

and we'll pray, all damn day, every day,
that all this shit our president has got us in will go away
while we strive to figure out a way we can survive
these trying times without losing our minds

so if you wanna burn yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
and if you wanna cut yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
and if you wanna kill yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
call me up before your dead, we can make some plans instead
send me an IM, i'll be your friend

shysters live from scheme to scheme and my 4th quarter pipe dreams
are seeming more and more worth fighting for
so i'll curate some situations, make my job a big vacation
and i'll say FUCK BUSH AND FUCK THIS WAR
my war paint is sharpie ink and i'll show you how much my shit stinks
and ask you what you think because your thoughts and words are powerful
they think we're disposable, well both my thumbs opposable
are spelled out on a double word and triple letter score

we won't stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again and just pretend that
nothing ever happened

we won't stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again and just pretend that
nothing ever happened

we're just dancing, we're just hugging,
singing, screaming, kissing, tugging
on the sleeve of how it used to be

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ive been listening to this song on repeat all day
the line "i'll drop kick russell stover" is especially telling since i used to work for russell stover candies. ha.

done with this damn paper now i need to find someone with a printer with ink so i can print it and be done.

writing my hel paper. need 2 more pages. all i really need to do is edit the paper and make it clearer and expand on some things.

reading the silver chair in the chronicles of narnia.

i am lame on a saturday, yes. but i have no other time to do these things. the paper is due tuesday and tomorrow lee is off all day so i will have no peace. and monday i have classes.

theory final on wednesday and i havent read jack for this unit at all. tuesday after hel will be reading and studying theory day.

writing my social darwinism paper for american lit.
i really want to chop my hands off so i dont have to type anymore
ive been sitting here since almost 10 am typing and writing and rewriting and thinking and analyzing and i just dont want to anymore

paper is due at 8 am tomorrow and ive written 3 drafts so far and they all suck. so now im taking the best parts and editing them and combining them together

and its thundering and lightning outside and i cant bring the plants in b/c they are superheavy.

i hope the electricity doesnt go out that would suck alot.

drinking a fat tire and trying in vain to finish my homeworks.

so far i've managed:
7 pages of a 10 page research paper (ive got all my sources though so yay)
2 pages of a 5 page research paper (no sources yet and i think i may have to change topics)
4 pages of a 5 page response paper (i need to edit this and possibly just ramble on a bit more b/c i made a c on the first paper in this class)

i also need to read hamlet, some short story for american lit (i havent even looked at it yet so i dont really know whats going on in that class next week)
and i need to read about 12 anthropology theory chapters because i havent kept up with the readings this unit. they bore me and ive fallen asleep twice trying to read so i figure i can just make a bunch of coffee one bored day and do it all at once.

that's what im doing on a friday night.
spending my time in front of the computer and typing my brain out and my fingers off.

i did watch the funny games remake.
don't waste your time on it. i think the german version might be better though.

day of the dead, the remake, was also awful. even though i ♥ mena suvari.

need to cancel gamefly, netflix and cable within the month
have to start saving money to move.

registered for my classes at radford today
3 graduate level english courses
couldn't get into the osteology course b/c i lack a prereq but ive taken (and failed) it before so i think im gonna talk to the prof when the semester starts and try to get an override for it.
b/c i really want the class. alot.

but im taking: linguistics, intro to lit scholar, and adolescent lit.

it sounds painful.

and i like having one non-english class a semester to give my brain a reading break.

i forgot the eggs and i only have self-rising flour not all purpose flour.
crap

this is stupid and now i dont even want to finish them. stupid first batch didnt rise and fell apart when i tried to take them out of the tin. this was a waste of batter and of time. i still have a little bit of cake batter left i cant do anything with.
this sucks.

finished watching the entire series of Jericho.
now i've started on heroes

finished my midsummer night's dream paper
working on my hel paper - the influence of the printing press on english
and i need to start my american lit paper - the struggle of women in the turn of the century, looking at emily dickinson and charlotte perkins gilman

grocery shopping today. need more soda

stupid bank overdrafted me again even though i had the money in the account. have to call tomorrow and complain. i need to close that account. they are awful.

i just checked an account balance for an account i haven't used in over 2 years. i had to remember my pin number. pretty darn good, since i actually managed to remember 6 random digits.

and the smell of cigarette smoke is wafting into my apartment and its nauseating.
i don't smoke and im home alone
i hate the neighbors sometimes.
they need to stop trashing up our front stoop area and shouting at each other really loudly on the front stoop and generally just being icky.

but i have 2.33 in my account still.
hoorah.

watching jericho all day on netflix and homeworking
started researching for my hel paper.
the influence of noah webster on american english.
sounds interesting. and it just might be.

2 updates in one day, man i must be bored.

Hel test today. it wasnt so bad. i think i did okay at least

need to do homework,
signed up for a free month of gamefly
so now i should have 3 more games to distract me from my homework this month

making breakfast and watching ncis
added a lot of stuff to my instant netflix so i can finally watch heroes

trying to study for my theory test tomorrow.
its not going so well.
i cannot read another essay on feminist marxist anthropological theory or i will scream
and i have 1.5 left to go. egads.

i need to do well on this test.

i also have an ever-expanding to do list
i shall list it for posterity's sake.

finish a midsummer night's dream paper due friday
work on history of the english language research paper
work on american lit research paper
read much ado about nothing
read julius caesar
read theory chapters
study for test tomorrow
read chronicles of narnia
start planning virginia trip
do a multitude of job applications and find new job

I guess I'm moving to Virginia in August.
I got into grad school.

super excited.

making breakfast and watching beverly hills 90210, the original.

should be doing homework.
already walked to krissys and back and had a beer. i thought it was necessary.

scared.

slept through my first class this morning.
the sleep part of my brain won over the need to watch a video about emily dickinson at 8 am
but i did manage to drag my sleepy self to my shakespeare class, to find out that it was cancelled. so i wasted about an hour walking there, waiting and walking back. i couldve watched a movie or eaten or slept more or hell, stayed and home and loafed.
i have one more class to attempt to make it to today. and i work tonight
not very exciting.

have a few petty grievances with the neighbors but we shall wait and see if i need to start being super passive aggressive and going to the landlord or if the (already passive aggressive) dirty looks and the i-dont-like-you stares will work.

going to watch diary of the dead and eat food.

and wait.

i should know in a few weeks if im acepted to grad school or not.
all my application stuff is in and i got the "we're making a recommendation to the committee" email yesterday. scary.

spring break and i got sick. of course.
its not bad, a cold bordering on sinus infection territory but nothing too monstrous.

cleaned today
signed up for netflix. watched juno and quarantine yesterday. put them back in the mail and hopefully by friday or saturday i should have the next 2 movies on my list.
need more movies to add to my queue. so if you know of any movies i should have seen tell me.
my list right now consists of things like suspiria and a clockwork orange and role models because i could not think of a single thing i wanted to see.

ive also managed to do something to my wrist, when i hold it in a certain angle or attempt to pick up or lift anything heavier than the cats, it hurts.
im secretly hoping i can break it before spring break ends and have a reason not to take my shakespeare midterm on monday. but that's an awful thing to think and im probably going to hell. oh well.

My 5 books:
1. Prozac Nation -- Elizabeth Wurtzel
2. Sex, Drugs and Cocoa Puffs -- Chuck Klosterman
3. Good Omens -- Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman
4. Stiff -- Mary Roach
5. Neverwhere -- Neil Gaiman

one of two professor has filled out and submitted my recommendation form
this is frightening on so many levels

woke up at 7 am to go to my 8 am class.
it was cancelled on tuesday and its my only thursday class, so i checked my email and yes, it was cancelled again. but dr sherman has the flu, so i can't be mad at him for not wanting to infect everyone.
so i have the day to myself here. cleaning since 8 b/c i know that if i dont do it first, i'll use it as my excuse to avoid these papers i need to write
and all the stuff i need to read.

but chocolate eclair creamer is quite yummy in vanilla coffee.

and woke up to the sound of mischief retching in the hallway. he puked up all the food he ate.
and then he did it again on the stairs. he actually managed to sit on one step while puking to the step below him. sweet cat.
i hope his little mischief belly doesnt hurt anymore and that i dont have to find any more cat-vomit surprises.

another day with an intense migraine
this one made me vomit.
then i fell asleep on the couch and slept through my classes.
but my shakespeare class was cancelled so i didnt miss anything there
now i need notes for my american lit and theory classes.
oh well.

anthropology major field test today. had to drag my migrainey self to campus to take it.
have to take my english major field test next tuesday and my general subject test in march to graduate.
too many tests.
tomorrow is a day of diligence. 2 papers due friday i have barely started.
and lots of readings to catch up on.

and i still need to get my gre scores and transcripts sent to radford.
and pray that i didnt waste $60 on an application for a school i can't get into.
grr.


oh, and i accidentally hit spell check instead of post and it told me that cancelled was spelled wrong. um.. okay.